what you left behind

as you drift above yourself
in a stupid high
like a fog that rolls just above the ground
i am chilled by the icy loneliness
that your absence leaves behind
a trail of uncomfortable silences
and frustrated wonderings

as you drive away
further and further from me
the wind runs its fingers through your hair
whipping it across your face
reminding you to love its freedom
i remain stagnant in our room
hoping i go unnoticed
like a missing sock
behind the washing machine

as you conquer every beauty
erasing a piece of me in your heart
with each pregnant kiss
i knock down every door
tear dowen every wall
searching, raging, wanting
to find you
though you were never really lost

as your side of the bed cools off
and forgets you ever existed
i slowly move to the middle
and take up your space
but always leaving just a little room
just in case
this waiting wasn't for nothing